Just one last chance and I will prove myself to you, please.
“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day…”
TOMORROW NIGHT AND THE DAY AFTER WILL DETERMINE WHERE THIS WILL GO. HOPEFULLY I GET WHAT I WANT BECAUSE IM TRYING SO DAMN HARD. CREATIVITY AND A POSITIVE MINDSET IS WHAT KEEPS ME GOING. I MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH.
I WON’T LET 1 YEAR AND 3 MONTHS GO THAT EASY. I WILL PROVE IT TO YOU.
I’m really not the type of person to be venting on social networks but I don’t have all too many followers on this so I don’t mind. Every night and morning you’re the first thing that comes across my mind and it sucks so bad to not be able to get a reply ,it hurts. Last night I dreamt of you and I laughing together walking at a park and being our normal weird selfs. The sparkle from your beautiful brown eyes, that one really cute dimple you have when you show those pearly whites, and the really cute nervous look you have and hesitate to lock eyes I witnessed. I swear the feeling of having you in my arms again was incredible. The fact that i was able to hangout with you not in real life, but in my dreams was such an amazing experience. It felt so damn real I woke up with an immense smile. I seriously cannot wait to fall asleep again tonight. I will see you later Raeveen.
I WILL PROVE TO YOU THAT I WILL NEVER FUCK UP AGAIN.
WHY AM I SUCH A HORRIBLE PERSON. SOMETIMES I WISH I WASN’T. THINGS LIKE THIS WOULDN’T HAPPEN TO ME. I TRY MY BEST TO NOT LET THIS BRING ME TO MY LOWEST BUT ITS HARD. WHY AM I SUCH A HORRIBLE PERSON ?
